QUESTION: What if one doubts that one's needs are justified? Isn't it also a question of what should be?
ANSWER: This is part of the confusion. If you do not know what you are supposed to want, what is a legitimate need on your part, you get confused between the childish aspect, which desires unreasonable and unrealizable love and attention, and the adult, legitimate need for human warmth and affection . In this confusion you may reject yourself for the latter, while, at the same time, you rebel against not obtaining the former. These confusions must all be brought out into the open and examined so that you can put order into them.
QUESTION: I am aware of the fact that I distort reality. I wonder how this applies to my work situation, wherein I am caught in a hostility cycle with my boss. At least on my part I feel very hostile to him. This is very real to me, although I know I am over-reacting to it. Would you comment on this?
ANSWER: As you already know, this has really not much to do with your boss. It is all a question between you and your father. You have to ask yourself the relevant questions. What do you really feel about him? What do you believe he felt about you? And why? If you tackle only these questions, you will already be more in clarity on the level of what you believe exists, rather than being in the fog of not quite knowing what bothers you. Out of these questions more questions will arise, of course. But let us not hurry ahead, just concentrate on these three questions, without taking anything for granted. It is essential that you ask yourself, and answer, these questions. Then you can tackle the next level of considering what is.
The Guide
by Eva Pierrakos
April 12, 1968
Copyright 1968, the Center for the Living Force, Inc.