Balance Of Control

By The Pathwork Guide

Greetings, my dearest friends. There is a great, warm current of strength and love gathered here. This blessing is the result of your efforts, your growth, your struggle in the right direction. Everyone of you here is responsible for some of it. Everyone of you here has contributed to it -- as also have some of my friends who are not present tonight.

With this lecture I shall try to help you a step further toward the goal. Now, what is the goal? Spiritual literature and religious teachings, in all cultures and in all places, in one form or another, century after century, always speak about "the Fall of the Angels," or "The Fall from Grace." What is really meant by this? Mankind usually interprets "the Fall" in a literal way, as an event in time and space. In other words, something that happened once upon a time in a certain place. Through certain actions, the individuals in question were displaced from one spot to another -- or sent down to another geographical sphere. This, of course, is a gross misunderstanding, for what is really meant by the story, and what seems so hard for man to understand, is no more and no less than a change in a state of mind. To be separated from God is a state of mind, or a state of consciousness. And to return to God, to one's Creator, is, again, a state of consciousness.

After a certain stage has been reached on this path of development, man discovers within himself a certain power and intelligence which feels as though it were a separate being, other than the usual conscious mind, the feeling that he has of himself. A vaster, different kind of being seems to be dwelling within. It is as though two brains exist -- the second, recently discovered, is much wiser and more satisfying in its guidance. It makes the person experience himself in a much more satisfying way.

Of course, this is an illusion, for there are not two separate entities. But at this point man has taken the first step toward his reunification with the Divine. He is no longer completely separated from it; he is able to be activated and moved by it. But it is an illusion that there are two minds, or consciousnesses, or separate beings in existence. It is all one consciousness, though still separated or divided. This "separation" constitutes what in religion is referred to as "the Fall of the Angels". In psychology a different terminology is used to describe the identical process; integration means nothing other than reunification with the Divine. Psychology also acknowledges the fact that the integrated, healthy individual functions from the center of his being.

The separation from this center is a wall of not knowing that this inner center of wisdom, love, and power exists. Not knowing this, contact with it is not sought, hence more confusion, error, and ignorance arise. The less the awareness of the existence of this inner center, the greater the separation from it must be.

When, due to increased self-awareness, parts of this wall begin to crumble, while other parts of the wall still persist, occasional contact with the inner center gives the appearance that two minds, two beings, are present. When parts of this inner self come forth, carrying literally infinite possibilities for bliss, for good, and for limitless expansion, they seem to be totally unconnected with the familiar personality.

This inner center is the Divine Consciousness. It permeates the entire universe, it comprises all. Hence, the inner center of one human being is one with the inner center of every other human being. All are filled with this living unity that knows no conflict and no limitation. The creative power at work in any life process is all one and the same. The separation of matter and consciousness is illusion. This illusion is the real meaning of what religion refers to as separation from God, or the "Fall of the Angels." Working oneself back to the state of bliss which results from being integrated and in contact with the inner center is the "goal." Not only the goal of such a path as this, but the unconscious goal of every living being.

The power contained in the nucleus of your innermost being is so vast that you cannot conceive of it, my friends. Only gradually can you test it and see it at work -- and marvel at it. You will see it first in smaller ways, which nevertheless appear almost miraculous. And, as you perceive more and extend your concepts and your vision, you will see it work in many wonderful ways. If you choose to call it into being, you will find this tremendous power to be so vast that you cannot conceive of "having" it, or "being" it, or being activated by it. It is as simple as that.

At the moment, most of you are still so separated from it, for you do not really believe that you have all you need in order to expand, in order to be in harmony, in the dynamic, creative life process, in which you give and receive all that you can possibly dream of.

Not being aware of this life center is directly connected with not being aware of the negative causes that you set in motion. This pathwork must primarily be concerned with uncovering the images, the wrong concepts, the destructive emotions, and behavior patterns. To the extent that these are changed, awareness of the Divine in you must follow. The impression of an apparently separate, foreign consciousness dwelling within also occurs in respect to the negative part of the personality. When the first attempts are being made to bring hitherto unconscious destructive material to the surface, the individual often feels as though an indwelling destructive entity, over which he has no control, were at work. He first ascribes negative events to an outside fate and fears the world and life around him. As he uncovers his own unconscious destructiveness, he begins to fear his own unconscious, over which he as yet seems to have no control. Here, too, he feels as though two separate entities were involved: his familiar conscious self, with its aims and thoughts, and the newly discovered unconscious, with its entirely opposite negative aims and thoughts. As he proceeds in this work, he gradually eliminates the separating factors. He begins to own up to and feel responsible for this indwelling "entity." He connects with it and can identify with it. Hence he can take responsibility for it and become one with it. Its workings are no longer separated from his conscious will. Thus man's ego integrates with a part of himself that has led him into blind alleys. But now the wiser ego can determine the way. The struggle between the educated ego and the indwelling destructive element ceases as soon as the outer ego is able to recognize its oneness with the destructive element.

The process is identical when man meets the divine center. Man is at first as unaware of it as he is of the destructive processes. As the mind questions its previous perception and begins to visualize new possibilities, what was buried comes to the fore. This process applies to the destructive as well as to the most constructive and creative elements in man. The manifestations of both seem at first disconnected from the self; only as it is accepted that they are part of the self can the self own up to them and integrate with them. Then the negative dissolves in the integration process with the conscious ego and the Divine activates and moves the conscious ego more and more, until the ego becomes one with it.

Consider any momentary undesirable mood or situation you seem unable to change. Somewhere in you there must be a point where you have deliberately produced the undesirable element, for otherwise you would not be in this situation. As long as you ignore the connection between your wanting the result you now suffer from and your experiencing this result, you must be frantic and frightened. However, you do your best not to admit this self-induced process, you prefer to believe it to be unkind fate. You struggle against seeing your own involvement. But once you want to see the connection, you will see it. Then you will be free, even while you are still imperfect. Where you have made this recognition you will no longer feel helpless and controlled by powers you cannot understand. If you ignore the fact that your present predicament was created by you, and may still continue to be activated by you, you truly defeat yourself. You must recognize this fact and thus eliminate your ignorance.

The moment you consider that whatever you experience is a result of some cause you have set in motion, the moment you can say, "I must somehow have produced it, I want to see where and how," and then let go and let your positive inner powers produce the answers, you must inevitably come into possession of this knowledge. In that moment you will experience the first inkling of peace and a state of fearlessness, because you are, within yourself, contemplating your own cause and effect. I have discussed this in different contexts before. I repeat it because it is badly needed by a number of my friends; because the truth is so easily forgotten when it has not become second nature in the process of growing. It must also be repeated to outline the parallel between the negative and positive inner processes. The more aware you are of both possibilities within, the more you can integrate and identify with both, so that the negative dissolves and the positive takes over. But you cannot gain awareness of either unless you contemplate it and cultivate it with your conscious ego. As you own up to the negative aspects in you, you will be capable of claiming for yourself the greatest power there is. As you take ownership and responsibility for the destructive in you, you are no longer ruled by it and you become capable of taking responsibility for the best in creation -- the Divine in you. When you are no longer ruled by the destructive because you accept it as part of you and thus establish self-determination, you shall be empowered by the vastest force in the universe and you will be activated by it to accomplish hitherto undreamed of results. As you see how the destructive elements in you work, and what motivates them, they will cease to frighten you, for you will be able to determine the course. At the same time you will no longer be frightened by the greatest positive power dwelling within you. You will be able to use it by building molds for it with your conscious mind. As long as man fears the destructive in him, he must also fear the Divine in him. He will cease to fear the destructive only if and when he is willing to face it squarely.

Becoming integrated with your divine center does not happen in one sweep. As you know, these processes are gradual. There are many areas where you are already quite free and have established a direct contact with the center of the inner self, which brings the most favorable consequences in inner and outer life experience. Other areas may still be walled in by lack of awareness. In those areas you may still not be cognizant of where and how you activate the negative processes, and therefore you cannot bring yourself to deliberately activate the positive ones. Your will is blocked and paralyzed. You may be perfectly capable to communicate with your inner nucleus and be guided and moved by it in most wonderful ways in all areas where you have gained freedom through awareness, but in areas of unawareness you are incapacitated from doing the same. Hence, in these areas you are separated from knowing what destructive elements are at work, and disconnected from the power that will help you grow out of it. For such situations, this lecture will be helpful.

You will learn to understand how these laws work, and how you can use the powers of your mind and your will. As you understand their potency, you will no longer feel a separation between your conscious intelligence and will, which form the active mind and personality, and the inner, vast divine self, the center of your inner being, which is, at the same time, the center of the universe.

As long as you are separated from the center, you must be weak and lost. Your separated brain and personality cannot do by themselves what can be accomplished solely in cooperation with the inner center. The outer personality levels serve one purpose: to reach this inner being. They exist in order to know this inner being; to conceive of the beauty and the possibilities of this inner being; to establish a deliberate contact with this inner center. The outer self has to allow itself to be guided, moved, and filled with what comes forth from the inner self. When the outer personality deliberately makes room for it, the inner self will spontaneously manifest. In this process the outer personality will eventually integrate with the inner nucleus.

When your outer self tries to accomplish that which the inner being alone is capable of doing, you cannot succeed. You must come into confusion and difficulties, into fear and pain. You must struggle in a most frustrating way. In its utter oblivion of the inner core, the outer self will try as hard as it can to control what it cannot control. This struggle must cause more tension, anxiety, sense of failure, and fear of defeat. But the exhaustion of this futile struggle, with all its senseless and outer pressure, must also induce the personality to give up in areas it is most necessary to persevere. For purposeful activity the exact reversal is needed: where the personality presses, forces, and pushes, letting go and giving up to a superior force (within the self) is necessary. Where the personality gives up in a hopeless, resigned way, without formulating the thoughts that can activate the inner nucleus, effort and will are in order. Unfortunately, too often the line of least resistance prevails in the thought processes which indulge in negativity, while the outer will fights, struggles, and presses for a desired result that cannot come as long as the inner faculties are left out of commission. This tense and anxious pushing occurs in a very subtle, but nevertheless very real, way. It is directed toward the behavior of others who, one feels, have to behave in a certain way to enable the self to accomplish its goal. The pushing is also directed toward the resisting self, which cannot be forced to feel differently as long as the personality ignores that definite "reasons" exist for its resistance.

This imbalance of control will be observed within the personality when you progress on this path. As it is observed, it can be corrected. You will be acutely conscious of how you give in to the most destructive thought patterns and emotions; you will see how, in this respect, you choose the line of least resistance. Now that they are no longer hazy, their effect can be evaluated, and you will be able to halt them and choose a constructive pattern of thinking, feeling, and willing. In the area of your momentary problem you will formulate the one constructive wish to reach inside and deliberately activate the vaster divine self that dwells deep within you.

This is not difficult. It is, in fact, a much easier action than what you are doing, the struggle you go through. If only you would say, "I, with my outer being, cannot solve this problem. But I know that I must be in confusion and untruth because I am driven to think, feel, and act in a way that produces hopelessness, fear, frustration, and feelings of doubt. I will now deliberately contact and activate the most constructive center of my innermost being and let it move me into the thoughts that I need to have at this moment; into the realizations I must have at this moment; into actions and feelings that are good and productive in this moment." And then let go and let be -- and let it move you. Let it "think" through you. Let it feel through you. This is all you have to do. In this way you activate that most potent live center. It will guide you from step to step.

The process I just described is obviously not a one-time and final action. At the beginning, you may feel that way, you may pull yourself together and follow through on this advice and, indeed, experience the most favorable result. But then you may assume that this is it and that no further steps are needed. Of course it does not suffice. For you are still at the beginning of this integration. It does not yet exist without conscious effort. It must be worked for by the same process of activating and formulating, of conceiving the proper thoughts and will, of calling forth this inner center. And the process must be repeated. Each juncture presents different roadblocks, which have to be recognized and eliminated. Each time difficulties and negativities appear, you must halt the negativity that seems so easy to give in to; you must fight to contact the inner being. This is not so hard; it really is rather easy. Each time you do it, another aspect of that separating wall will be removed. More understanding, more life must come, so that eventually you will feel this power that moves you as your power. You will feel a oneness between your outer self and this center you have to call into manifestation by a deliberate thought process. It will no longer seem as though a second consciousness existed in you. Nor will it be as though the results in your life had nothing to do with you. You will be connected both with the negative causes you had not seen before, and with the positive powers you never dreamed possible. This will result in filling you with productive thoughts of truth, expansion, and a wider vision of possibilities. Each situation will offer many possibilities for desirable results, for solutions, and for creative growth.

You cannot come out of any difficulty if you trust the outer mind exclusively. Let the outer mind be filled with the inner being. Then, and then only, can you find the way out of each specific problem.

The re-establishment of balance regarding mind control can best be demonstrated with the following example. Each human being needs and wants love. When you are separated from the center within, your approach to obtaining love is a reversal of control. When a proper balance of control exists in this respect, man gives of himself freely and fearlessly. At the same time, he lets the loved one free. He does not force, he does not need to possess, he does not need to own, he does not need to exert a tight control and pressure. Therefore he cannot be owned or controlled. Hence, he need not fear to love and be loved. He must realize, in this frame of mind, that love is the greatest freedom. That it must come to him, if he lets it, and that he does not have to fight or push for it. He can let others free because he knows that he receives what is his. And love is his because he does not block it, he does not fear or resist it. Love is a floating continuum that can never be taken away from him as long as he does not take it away from himself. There is no end to it as long as he does not end it. It is utterly safe, there is no danger and no conflict attached to it. Therefore, to give of himself, to love, and to contribute do not imply a loss of control. He is, in the true sense of the word, self-determining. In the best sense, the control is his, without tightness or fear.

But in distortion, in false control, man is again in an either/or situation. He is not loving and letting free. He envisages either the false version of love or the false version of letting free. To love in a distorted way is martyrdom, self-effacing submission, and self-destruction for the sake of the "loved one." To be loved, in the distorted version, is to possess and control the loved one completely. Hence, the fear that to love means possession, submission, and martyrdom. You yearn for love, yet you are afraid of it, and you resist it. The individual rightly doubts his power to own and control another person to the exclusive extent he believes it to be necessary. Fear of being controlled (to love), and fear of not being able to control (being loved) lead to the false version of letting free, which is withdrawal, indifference, non-involvement, non-commitment, numbness of feelings, separateness, and refusal to love.

When man is involved in this distortion, he cannot see that love and freedom are one. He must associate love with lack of freedom. Even if intellectually he knows better, emotionally he cannot experience the mutual freedom of true love.

Such a struggle cannot be resolved with the outer mind, intellect or will. Activate the inner center by expressing that you want to give of yourself fearlessly, without fear of being controlled. Express your desire to feel and experience the oneness of love and freedom, as you grant it to the other and therefore experience it for yourself. Request guidance to get you to this stage by establishing the necessary sense of integrity and self-acceptance. You will discover that the more you love, the more freedom and selfhood you have. If you express this possibility as a formulated thought, and then activate the inner powers to help you experience it, you must come out of whatever problem you may find yourself in at the moment.

Your loneliness, your fears, and your conflicts, in one way or another, come down to this: you do not do the only purposeful thing to do, activate the divine nucleus within you. It is the only real, relaxed, and productive control, for it is this inner center which can indeed solve all problems, if you only let it. And you let it only when you call upon it. It is this inner being, right in you, that knows and understands the "process" of love without danger; of giving love and freedom, and therefore of receiving love and remaining free. Your outer self does not understand this. You cannot produce a state of mind which you do not truly comprehend. Your inner self can help you. Call upon it.

Your inner nucleus, with all its powers, can solve all your problems, whatever they are. Whatever your misconceptions are, this indwelling consciousness can change them into truthful states of mind. It is always ready to respond, but it must be specifically contacted. It will fill you with new, stimulating, and challenging thoughts, outlooks, and ideas. It will lead you into feelings of truth and beauty. Its guidance is invaluable. If you call upon it, it must respond, for that is the law. This is not magic, it is not an inconceivably difficult feat you have to master. You can do it right now, if you so choose.

All real and constructive actions and experiences in life come forth from this inner center, from your innermost self, your nucleus, the divine substance that is with you and in you at all times. It cannot respond unless your outer mind, which is separated from this nucleus, deliberately establishes contact with it.

The comprehension and the following through of this process is the greatest need for all my friends now. No matter how much we have talked about it in this or that fashion, it is still forgotten, overlooked, neglected, not acted upon. You give in to the negative, the destructive so easily. You entrust yourself so readily to the outer mechanics where the negative processes sweep you into a vortex. The negative chain is started deliberately at one point; you have to find this again and again. Then it gets out of hand, until it seems that you can no longer control it. But you can. It is the simple formulation of the right thought and desire. This is the only effort, my friends. It is the effort you constantly need in order to go through life. When you remain separated from the inner nucleus, you are needlessly exhausted. You do not make that one effort to deliberately contact the inner power, to activate you and to fill you with what you need most. When you do not make this effort, you use a hundred times more energy than would be necessary if you chose to make this specific effort. This wasted energy produces failure and disappointment. You give in to the line of least resistance in the one area where you need to persevere. You make a tremendous effort to escape the negativity you have produced in the first place, the negativity you have chosen to give in to.

When this process is reversed and you use your energy to halt destructive processes and deliberately contact the powers within, you will be activated by the powers and wisdom within. This is a spontaneous process that comes quite effortlessly. But first you must pull your thoughts together, you must want to entrust yourself to the divine powers within. You must make the effort. You must clearly formulate the desire to come out of any negative inner or outer situation. As you do this, reach for the inner power to lead the way, step by step.

Do not doubt the existence of your inner core, my friends. But even if some of you have not as yet sufficiently experienced it, even if you still doubt, you can follow through this process anyway. You can always express a clearly formulated desire for a constructive result. And even while you doubt the existence of greater wisdom and power within yourself, which is immediately accessible, you can honestly test it and allow it to manifest "if it exists." If you merely argue against it, instead of trying it, you are not honest in your doubt. You have nothing to lose, for you have amply experienced that relying solely on your outer faculties has gotten you into the undesirable situation you find yourself in. Outer pressure, tension, and forcing currents have not accomplished it. So try it this way now. Entrust yourself to these inner powers, which you do not have to pressure or direct after you formulate the thoughts of constructive will. You will see it work.

Now, my friends, here I have given you a key that could get you across a major threshold, if you but use it, if you use control in the way I describe, instead of in the way you have been doing. You may find areas in which you already do what I have just described. And you will see that in those areas your life is most successful. Things go smoothly and effortlessly. And, in fact, you no longer even have to make an effort with your outer mind to formulate constructive desire and to contact the inner being, for unity has already been established. You already have come home. Your consciousness is completely constructive in all of its expressions; the inner and the outer facets of consciousness are united. There is no division. In these areas you are in harmony, there is no trace of destructiveness in motivation in the remotest recesses of your personality. What religion refers to as "salvation" has taken place in these areas; psychology refers to the same as integration, mental health, and emotional maturity.

At the same time, other areas of your personality are still in the dark regions of conflict, error, doubt, ignorance, and destructiveness. There, if you use the key I give you, you can accelerate the process of development.

False control strengthens the wall of separation. Eliminate this wall by contacting deeper and vaster faculties to activate you, even while the wall is still present. Make this, my friends, your main concern at this time. Use this key in whatever area you see fit and wherever you feel you have the greatest need at any given moment of each day. The more resourceful you become in formulating your needs where you wish for the inner center to guide and inspire you, to activate and fill you with truth, with constructive outlook and energies, the more perfect the manifestations of the center will become. In so many and such different ways will it manifest that it will truly fill you with security and trust. Trust in yourself and in the life process.

Ask this constructive power, this nucleus of perfection and beauty, of health and wisdom, to give you the right ideas for removing the separating wall. Request it to inspire you with the most effective meditation at any given moment, so that even your outer mind, which must make the first step to establish the contact with the inner center, will be filled with the power and wisdom of your core. Thus the interaction will work both ways. The more you cultivate this process, the safer you must feel, and the more you will realize that no problem is without a solution. Salvation, my friends, lies exclusively in reuniting the outer mind with the inner nucleus. This salvation is so near, with all its truth and light and relief and happiness; but it never occurs to you. Go into this deep center of yourself and the answers will come forth, enlightenment must follow and crises will inevitably disappear.

An even greater force of love and power is not activated. For many of you here have not only understood, but have gained an insight, or a glimpse, a hope and a light. This light shows that you are not dependent on any outer power which has to be coerced, submitted to, or cajoled. It is an immediately available power inside. It is so secure and so wonderful. Some of you here have perceived it and are on the verge of using it where it is most needed. In doing so, you will soon be out of your crisis or your painful confusion.

Be blessed, all of you. Be in peace. Be in God.

The Guide
by Eva Pierrakos
October 29, 1965

Copyright 1965, by Eva Pierrakos

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